It's been 6 months. It's been the best 6 months of my life. I met different people, not just ordinary people but great ones. I worked for the first time. And yeah, for the first time I have to take a bigger responsibility.. Enough for all the childish acts, it's time for me to be a man. It's time to prove that I can be in a situation I can excel and I can prove others that I am not hopeless. I was given six months to do everything. For six months, I did. I felt like I was on top of the world. I felt a kind of happiness I can't compare. It's satisfying to my part. When the six months was over, they gave me a chance to go on and pursue a career but I decided that six months is enough. I also need to think about myself. It's like the sports of boxing - a boxer should retire not because he is already marred by injury but while his greatness is still fresh on people's mind.
The company where I worked has been very kind to me. There were ups and down but nevertheless, I considered the office as my home - my comfort zone. People there were just so nice. I forgot every bad thing I have in my past when I'm working. I was determined and I was very passionate. I guess that's what would happen when you are working with people who are mature enough to know how life sucks and how it could fucked you up every single night.
I've been part of a team- different teams. It only means one thing - I need to cooperate which is one thing I hate doing before. Everyday, I considered my teammates as my mentor. I have high respect for them. Experience taught them how to succeed and how to be matured individuals and I told myself that one day I would also have that kind of sense of responsibility that they have right now. When there's a team, there's a coach - and boy ours is really is Phil Jackson-esque. A motivator I would say and unpredictable. Seriously, I never met such a person who believes in me more than how I look into myself. Such a great experience being in that team. Our manager is also nice. Despite what I've been hearing from other people, I have high respect for her. She reminds me of my college girlfriend.
Lastly, the office is where I found contentment. Life does not have to be full of ambition and aspirations. I learned that I would get the satisfaction I would want and the happiness I deserve if I learn how to accept things the way it's being given to me. I get to know myself better. Control my emotions and learn. Yeah, learn everyday even though there is competition. I have worked hard everyday and I know that even if I keep doing the same thing, it won't guarantee me of high stats or commendations but the best thing is that I gained respect from people and I learned how to survive.
I'm much prepared now. I'm now equipped with experience , though little, I believe in the cliche it's the best teacher in life.
I did not quit. I'm still walking right now. I'm still on my journey and I know that I just need to hit a pit stop somewhere to assert myself. I would keep those memories from my past. They would serve as my guiding light. It's been six months, totally a roller coaster ride.
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PS: I found love in the office - that's another story though. =)
